Here in Kansas, I'm so excited for you.
I know you will do well, and are as prepared as you can be.
Back in 2006 I was selected for the Western Design Conference show in Cody, WY.
The booth cost was something like $3200, which ought to be a crime, but this is Capitalism.
Friends and Family paid all of my expenses for the show and travel and lodging, otherwise I couldn't have done it.
About 3 weeks before the show, I got so nervous, throwing up sort of nervous, that if I had not been given the money for the show, I most assuredly would have canceled and not gone. I was pretty sick and nervous.
I prayed, "Why God am I so nervous, help me get over this." One day it hit me, what I was nervous about was the real fear that I would get to the show and be embarrassed by my work in comparison with the other makers who have long records of success and awards and nationally known, and it would be obvious to everyone that I was not a "contender" in that crowd.
I was given the image in my head of being like one of those kids that goes to American Idol to audition, and is just used for laugh track work on television. Everyone that loves them has told them they could do it, sing, live the dream, chase your dream, you can do it…...but when they sing, what comes out is not Idol-worthy, and they are just laughed at. I can't imagined how crushing that moment is for them, but it is the Truth, they were made for something other than singing. Randy on American Idol will often tell those kids, "you should go and try something else, singing is not your thing Dawg!"
And that was It, that was what I was afraid of, I was afraid of not being competent in that WDC crowd, and it would be obvious.
Knowing your fears is the first step, facing them is the 2nd step. I learned that my fear was based on my internal conflicts of whether I had the skills to pull off showing my work at the WDC. Not wanting to disappoint my donors, I pushed down the fears, loaded up the rental truck, and headed out with my Dad, who took vacation time to come along and help me. We had a great time together, and at the show, despite the huge amount of work it is to move a big booth and aisle display of heavy solid wood furniture from Kansas to Wyoming and back to the customer's various homes (I didn't have much to sell, so I borrowed back things I'd been commissioned for).
In the end, I learned a lot about myself, and about big shows. I've not been back to a major show since that trip in 2006, but the learning experience, and the decision to push down the fears has served me well in the 5.5 years since that trip. Want some more "Fear", try sitting there on the couch listening to Pres. George Bush go on TV in Sept. 2008 and look into the camera and say, "We are in deep doo doo folks…" (my paraphrase). I got scared that night. I don't make anything anyone "needs", how could I possibly survive a recession/depression and stay in business? I prayed that night, and many others since.
I sincerely hope good things and pray for your trip, and continued success. It's been a lot of fun watching you take this product and your skills and build upon it, and I have good feelings about how this Fly Fishing show will go for you.
Take Care, keep us updated,
Mark